Caught in a Snowstorm
Updated: Aug 21, 2021
WHO'S SHOVELING YOUR SNOW?
Last night in my city we had one of the must heaviest snowfalls of all times.
The News reported it so much that my energy for embracing, what I had no control over caused me to become a weight. Everyone was raving about the storm that was coming. Several times I looked out the window and watched it fall. Six to ten inches of snow. The school closed early, salt trucks were out, and cars were moving like snails.
But I myself as a single woman was twirling from within. I have drifted away about facing the storm that was tossing me to and fro. The storm that most single women face around this time of year. Winter. Being a single homeowner in winter and having to shovel your own snow. Simply because sometimes the funds are just not there to pay someone to do the job.
This is what my meltdown looked like. Before I thought I had no control over the energy of my own change. I begin to spin in the wind of the blame game. Blaming men had become my exhale. Especially the men who appeared to be interested in having a relationship with me. So they say. Truthfully I found myself once again asking the same questions as passed situations before. Those times when I was looking for that one special man out of them all, to show up and be the savior for the distressed single woman.
I ASKED:
Why do men want to wine and dine me? And they're not available when I need them to be the man in my life to handle manly things.
Why hasn't the guy who says he's so interested, called yet? He knows it's snowing because it's snowing on his side of town.
What about the one who's always in my family face? Claiming..."I'm about to marry her." "She's a keeper, " he would say.
Where is the man that always call me in the middle of the night to try and come over?
Because he couldn't sleep unless I was laying on his chest.
Oh! I guess he's going to wait until the snow piles up. I get it. He wants to show off his skills.
I told myself over and over again the same stories with the same ending.
Well, whether you believe me or not. Today as I embraced my single life one more day. I changed my thought process about being alone. I was strengthened and now have the desire to be free in my singleness.
I decided to get rid of the excuses for me. When I realize I had never been alone for even in this the Lord is here. Strength came to me from His strength. I made a move. Putting my coat and boats on was not the challenge I faced. But, taking care of me first and foremost was more important by far was one of the lessons I needed to learn. And not having the expectation of waiting on someone else too. I went outside to shovel the snow in my own yard. I tossed a little here and a little there. The more I moved in my own decision without any more excuses. There was a breaking free that came over me. Freedom of the expectations I had placed on men and my desire of having one. Then out of nowhere, you send a stranger in his truck plowing through the snow to rescue me from me. Showing me that you had me covered along.
"There is freedom here, in this space." I said, to the Lord, "You didn't die to enslave us to inside whirlwinds."
TO MY SINGLE FRIEND:
Break free in being whole in one space until the two becomes one!
Break free of wanting to call the man who's not fully interested in your total well being.
Break free of putting so much energy in the man who is supposed too.
Break free of fighting the thoughts of raising the man who doesn't care to know how to take care.
Break free to be open for the waiting love to come and decide to trust the process.
Father God,
You made a way! Thank You. For always reminding me to hear your voice when you whisper to say, "In me, you can do all things." Thank you, for this teaching moment that there is a big difference in "the guys" vs the "mature man" who knows.
Believing the useless excuse, that a man's job was to do it for me and not me myself.
Your will is to take care of the single woman as well as the orphan and widower. Today I learned that trusting the strength that you have given me is the best position I could ever be in. The strength to do the task. You showed me that the job was already done in the preparation. I now know that sometimes the task is simply just facing what needs to be done! And stay committed to the shaping of not just being a listener but, forever becoming a doer.
Share in the comments when you were once in a storm and how God provided help?
